It's a New Year

So, what can I say. Yesterday I weighed in at 153 for a brief moment. LOL. Most people use the begininig of a new year to make exercise goals.

I am going to seriously reflect on things for this year....I want to list them to try to keep me honest. I truly believe that the people who blog are a bit more succesful.

One more things.....I MUST attend WLS meetings....that's my goal for this year...I will make an official list shortly.

It's New Years Eve 2009

Wow, what a difference a year make. This morning I weighed 154 lbs...so no difference from last year. This is good but I still want to lose 8 more pounds. My daughter and I will be joining the Y in January. Hopefully this will help me accomplish my goal.

You know I have read so many blogs about people getting married after they had WLS....well, I am not saying that I am getting married but I have started talking to someone who is from another State. I am so excited! God only knows how this will turn out but I am happy about the experience.

So as I reflect on 2009 I am talking to my new friend on the phone. I know that I am blessed and highly favored to have my family and friends who love me.

Tomorrow - August 4th

Tomorrow is my Birthday, I will be 44 years old. Tomorrow I will also be 20 months post op.

I weight 155 and m goal is 145. I wear size 8. I want more....

19 months out....

It's with a heavy heart that I must say that I am not doing well from a weight loss perspective....well, I say not well because I'm at a stand still. My weight fluctuates between 153 and 156. I'm so bummed by that.

Now let me say, I am not doing all that I can do and that's why I am writing today. I also want to attend group meeting tomorrow. I am trying to get back on track. I am still a size 8 and medium, but I feel I could reach my goal weight if I tried harder. I've met Dr. Smith's goal for me but I want more. I ask myself, "am I being greedy"? I may be but I want to go as low and I can so if I gain 5-10 percent back, I will end up where I am today.

Don't get me wrong, I get many compliments and I know I've come a long way but I want more.

I completed Pink Ribbon 8k on Saturday at Stone Mountain Park; it was great. I need more races. I found a new water aerobics class that I can pay as I go and I'm excited about that as well.

Hair issues are improving and I'm happy about that too. There's so much going on right now.

The last time I had my labs done, they were not complete. I need to have the re-done so Dr Smith will know if I have any deficiencies that need to be addressed.

Ramblings

It is so hot! On Saturday, we went to Stone Mountain Park to a picnic that one of my friends planned. It was really nice. I can't believe I sat outdoors for almost 8 hours. Things have definitely changed.

Last night was water aerobics with my daughter and it was a great class. I took my nephew too; he's older and he plays football but I think he really enjoyed it... He had never done anything like that before. He can swim but my daughter and I can not.

My little one is getting more and more comfortable in the water after just 2 classes. One of the parents has really taken her time to work with my daughter before and after class to help her float etc.

Sunday night, I took 3 teenage boys, my daughter and one of her friends to Acworth Beach...I was nervous about the girls going because they are so much younger and can't swim... but my nephews can swim and they are ages 13,15 and 16. We will probably do that again soon. It was so relaxing for me.. I sat on the beach watching the sun set while the kids played.

I am not sure if I've mentioned this before but I am a single parent. My daughter is adopted; she was 6 1/2 months when I become her foster mother and the adoption was final when she turned 4 years old. She doesn't know that she's adopted yet; my decision to adopt her has changed my life.

Parenting her is the most difficult thing I've ever done in my life. She has a very strong personality. Quite frankly, she wouldn't be alive if it wasn't for her perseverance...she's a blessing to me and I hope I am one to her. Sometimes, I feel so inadequate.

One of her friends parent invited her to go to Six Flags this week; she earned a free ticket by reading during the school year. I am hesitant to let her go, but I will pray about it. I rarely allow her out with other people. I'm just really careful about that especially because she can be so "head strong" sometimes. She's a bossy little smart girl. :)

My big concern about her going with other is the fact that she's a risk taker....that's totally opposite from my personality...Over-all she's a good kid, she's very creative and she can entertain herself. She never gives up which is a blessing and a curse... Well enough about her....

OK, just a little about my weight....I am stuck between 152-154...I am still considered overweight. I wear mostly a size 8's and some size 6's. In shirts/tops/blouses, I wear mostly small and some mediums. I never in my widest dreams thought I would like this size. I'm content but I would like to wear less than 145 so I can be considered normal size.

I just started exercising so I hope to get rid of the last 8+ lbs.

I've been working late for the last several weeks; I am off to take my daughter out...maybe to the park so she won't be so bored. Since I work from home she's stuck here in the house all day unless I plan an activity after work with her.

Anyway, until next time...

Water Aerobics Class

Tonight, my 7 year old has a water aerobics class...and I am able to participate too. I'm so excited. I absolutely love water aerobics. Again, choices for kids have a free water aerobics class on Mondays nights in the month of June.

My little one is so excited too; she's never done water aerobics before.... It should be interesting...

Today my 7 year old and I completed a 5k in Woodstock. Choicesforkids.com had a 5k to raise money for childhood obesity. This was my daughter's first 5k and she did a great job. Afterwards there were activities for the kids.

My daughter did WI Fit she really enjoyed it; she shot basketball hoops. She's really good at that...and one of the things I'm most proud of her for is the fact that she climbed a rock wall. It was very tall and she had to try 3 times before she went all the way to the top but she did it.... and I was so proud of her determination to complete the task.

Famous chef, Marvin Woods, cooked low fat jambalaya and other meals. He also answered questions about removing fat from common dishes. It was great.

Next week, there is another 5k that I want to participate in; I think this one benefits epilepsy. I don't plan on taking my 7 year old because I would like to complete this one quicker. I am planning to participate in a 1/2 marathon in September so I really need to step up my game and get to training.

I met someone who does boot camps for women. Now, this is something that I think would take me to the next fitness level. A new class begins next week, but I won't be able to participate in it. I can't afford it right now; but I wrote down my contact information and she will call me so I can participate in the next class.

She told me that she could see my excitement about the class as she described it to me. I pray that I will be able to participate the next go round.

My weight fluctuates between 151-153. I can't seem to get below 150 and stay there. My goal is 142-144 lbs.

Well, that's all for now; I really don't have much of a social life outside of church functions.

Idle thoughts

Today was an interesting day. I plan to add pictures soon. In a few days, I will be 18 months out and it's been a good ride.

I went into my office and people literally didn't know who I was; I was so afraid of letting my previous team mates see me, but it wasn't that bad. I've been working from home for the last 2 years, and I haven't seen these peoples.

I really need to work on not being concerned about what others think of me. I'm not there yet. I was really stressing about it.

No matter how much weight you lose, it doesn't fix everything. I am a work in progress.

We did it

So, Saturday morning, the kid and I headed to Kennesaw Mountain Park to walk up the mountain. As I previously stated, I was not necessarily looking forward to taking my daughter but it turned out well. It was drizzling rain on our way up and I prayed that the rain would hold off until we finish....and it did.

She did very well. I was so proud of her. We may do it again on Saturday. The city of Woodstock is having a choice4kids 5k to educate parents and kids on childhood obesity and I really want to take her to that...so we will see what happens.

Today is a day of relaxation for me. While my daughter is trying to get me to take her to the pool in our subdivision, I plan on taking a break and "chillin out".

Later this afternoon, we will go over to my sisters house for dinner, then back to work tomorrow.

Since I work from home and my kid is out of school; we will spend this week getting into our summer routine. Our children's ministry at church is having a pool party to kick off the summer; it's on Thursday afternoon. So, I've worked out a plan to take my daughter to the pool party and work also.

I would like her to attend basketball camp, but I'm apprehensive about the camps because I don't personally know the people involved...and the kids are grouped with older kids. I personally don't agree with 7 yr olds being grouped with 13 yrs old kids. So, I will keep looking.

One more thought, out bible class lesson yesterday was about "discipleship". This was a very sobering lesson that convicted me. If you recall me mentioning in my last post, that I didn't feel like I was participating in life...well, our lesson reintegrated that but for different reasons. I will continue to share my thoughts on this as I meditate on this.

Talking about Marathons

I am so looking forward to this 3 day weekend. My weekend seems to go by so quickly. There's so much to do. I plan to get a pedicure in the morning. That's "my time".

I had every intention of going to support group last night. Something always come up. I had to take my Dad to the womb center at Kennestone Hosp so I worked late to make up the time.

Today was the last day of school for my 7 year old and I think I'm more excited than she is about that. I don't have big plans for the summer. I have to keep expenses down. But I will work on something special for my daughter's birthday in July.

Before my surgery, I was training for a marathon and I had gotten up to 11-13 miles per week. Well, I haven't done much in that area since 2007. Today I decided to get started again.

I want to complete a 1/2 marathon before the end of this year. I know I can walk one but I want to run most of the race and that will require much training. So, tonight, I went to www.active.com and selected several 5k races to participate in and to get me started.

Prior to my surgery, I trained with www.getfitatlanta.com. It was a really good program, but they train on Saturday mornings in west cobb and it's not convenient for me. They have a team that trains in the Kennesaw area but they meet on Sundays and I can't make that commitment because I go to church on Sundays. It cost me $125.00 several years ago to join the training program; but, I'm not sure how much it cost now.

Maybe next year, I can train with them. I selected three 5k races. I need to add a couple of 10k races to get me ready for the Silver Comet 1/2 Marathon at the end of October.

I'm posting this to keep me honest. I have not done a good job of consistently exercising since my surgery.

I don't remember if I mentioned that I was diagnosed with pneumonia a couple of months ago and was told not to exercise until they found out what was going on. My lung doctor told me that it was OK to exercise if I felt like it....and I do feel like it. I went for a walk in my neighborhood yesterday with my daughter and dog. It was nice.

I'm thinking about walking up Kennesaw Mountain in the morning. I really need to take my 7 year old but it's not as relaxing with her because she complains and she wants to stop a lot; but I know I need to take her so she can learn to like it. We'll see how that goes...

I don't want to look back and regret not taking advantage of the time that I have. I read other people blogs and they seem to be living life to the fullest. I am not quite there yet but I have a desire to do so.