Monday, September 1, 2008

Happy Labor Day

This has been a great year. I am 3 days away from my 9 month anniversary. Things are going well. My 2 sisters and I went to Kennesaw Mountain this morning; we walked to the top and back down again. It was exhilarating. I always enjoy that walk even though it's challenging for me.

It's been a relaxing day and I've truly taken the holiday weekend off. I will probably sign into my office email in an hour or so to get ahead of my email before tomorrow but all-in-all I was able to rest, which is long over due.

Nothing new on the weight loss front. The weight has been slowly melting off. I'm a size 12 but not for long. I'm down 102 lbs from my highest weight. Only 6 lbs to go before I meet Dr. Smith's weight loss goal for me. But, that's not enough for me because I truly want to be considered a normal weight. Although, I look fine; according to the charts, I'm still considered to be overweight. When I would read this on other people's blog, I didn't quite understand it, but I understand it now.

Last night at a church dinner, someone cornered me about my weight loss. I haven't really told that many people at church because I don't want to discuss it with everyone and I think I don't want people discussing me. I guess I shouldn't care, but I do. Anyway, this woman was trying to make me tell her how I loss weight and I refused and she got mad at me. Here's what she said to me "I have to know what you are doing, you look so good that you can stop traffic". I laughed at her and told her the change couldn't be that drastic but she said "believe me it is". This is a lady that I consider to be "skinny" so I was totally shock to hear this from her.

I still can't help but think about how invisible I was prior to the procedure. It literally brings tears to my eyes at times. Now, I'm trying not to hide and that's still difficult for me, but having a 7 year old forces me out of my comfort zone.

I read another person's blog talking about making a difference everyday we wake up and that is truly my desire in life, but sometimes it's easier to just operate in reactive mode. I am striving to do better and to make sure I tell my friends and family how much I love and appreciate them. I don't want to take anyone or anything for granted.

I know my hair loss has decreased and I think it has stopped totally. I will continue to take Biotin 5000 mg and get protein conditioners for my hair. I can finally see improvement. Now, I need to tone up my body. Since, I've been losing weight so slowly I'm not really flabby, just a little flabby. My thighs and arms need the most work. I hope I can just exercise and not have to have plastics. I just prefer not to have to go under the knife again if I don't have to. It's not an issue for me right now since I'm only 8+ months out.

Two more non-weight loss challenges are work/life balance and my budget. I'm making strides to improve in both of these areas. However, I feel blessed in spite of the present challenges that I have now.

Enjoy your holiday!